I have debated writing about this since I started this blog. It has been mentioned in multiple posts but based on the misconceptions of certain people and the transgender intent to define all transsexuals as the same it has become sort of a litmus test or badge of honor for some to claim they are. To be truthful some are that do not know they are and others are, to be blunt, delusional. It doesn't mean they are not transsexual it just means they were thankfully not born transsexuals that fall under the Benjamin category Type VI.
Over the decades the Benjamin scale has come under fire because certain want-to-be-transsexual people seem to not fit and others want to be the best which they perceive to be Type VI. First, if you are a late transitioner and transsexual you are a Type V. There is absolutely zero chance that a Type VI transsexual will have married, fathered children, and waited until they are 50+ to transition. One particular individual had an "Awakening" at 50+ where she had a vision in her garage and discovered she was transsexual. I believe this person was born transsexual but is Type V not Type VI.
The first question one must ask is what makes you "Elizabeth" so seemingly knowledgeable about what defines or characterizes a Type VI transsexual. First I was diagnosed by Dr. Benjamin as type VI but since 1971 I have been deeply involved in helping young transsexuals, all Type VI, through the nightmare that is their childhood. At present we have funded completely 7 children and 2 more are in the process right now. I have also helped several others financially before I retired. It was my closest friend and myself and it was our way of giving back. We were both successful as women and it seemed the right thing to do. We could afford to help and we did because we saw ourselves in the children.
Benjamin recognized the difference between transsexuals based on intensity. He used the term "total psycho sexual inversion" for Type VI transsexuals because they were simply convinced they were girls and to be blunt almost all of us push boundaries. You can see it today in a Kim Petras or the young children that are truly transsexual that have the courage to transition as early as they can. One of the bravest I know of was a teenager who transitioned in high school despite being arguably the best "male" athlete in her school and if I remember correctly a highly recruited football player.
I spent a lot of time on the phone with this child. Her father had groomed her to be a football star and refused to help. It tells a story that her mother was gone and she did it on her own. She was a classic Type VI transsexual. Only another Type VI can understand the intensity that forces a child to simply say no more. I am going to be the girl I should have been and to hell with all of you. I paid for that child's surgery and she is a happy well adjusted young girl.
The key with complete or total psycho sexual inversion is the simple fact that since you already believe you are a girl there is no pushing it behind door number one until you are 53. There is no pushing it behind door number two until you have an "awakening" later in life. In Harry's book he mentions a young MTF transsexual that Harry believed killed herself with references to letters he received. The anguish and pain put into words by that 20 something transsexual is what being Type VI is about. By the way Harry found out after the book was published that she did kill himself.
Another Type VI and a good friend of mine killed herself as I mentioned in another post. Dr. Benjamin believed possibly 1 in 300,000 were Type VI transsexuals with the numbers that were Type V probably 10 time higher. Harry had only met one other young transsexual before he met me primarily because for the era it was almost impossible to find help. The suicide rates both successful and attempted are very high among young Type VI transsexuals. I have known approximately 20 Type VI transsexuals. The oldest I have know in in her mid 30's now but ran from home in her teens and sold herself on the streets of Europe.
Another close friend drowned herself in booze to make it to 30 but the second she sobered up she transitioned. Another one I know tried to transition in 50's but that was not easy and fooled herself into a marriage that lasted a couple years but was transitioned and on her way to surgery in her mid 20's. Most if not all I have know are like me. They pushed gender boundaries even like I did in the 50's. One ran from a home in the upper Midwest where her Reverend father beat the daylights out of her and physically tried to kill her when he found out she liked boys and actually had a boyfriend. She ran to the streets of NYC to become a hooker out of survival until discovered by the drag world where she became world famous but walked from that at 25 when she had the money with some help from a good friend.
Another one grew up in Spanish Harlem and was so effeminate her life was a challenge to survive. She ran numbers for Bumpy Johnson to pay for the hormones she started at 12. She ran to Frisco when her sadistic father was about to be released from Sing Sing after serving 8 years for nearly killing her when she was 6. She actually went to school as a girl and was thrown out of the NYC school system for doing it.
Another dear friend was caught by her mother and threatened to send her to her all boy school in a dress she was wearing. When she saw how her child's face lit up like a Christmas tree she dropped that mode of punishment although I speak with certainty when I say my friend would have gleefully gone to her English Boy's school in a second as a girl.
We of course faced many of the pressures that others faced but to a Type VI there is no choice. You either deal with it or you will eventually succumb to it. It is not something you control. It is not something that makes you more transsexual than any other transsexual. It is a condition that basically forces you to deal with it very early on in life. It is a state that doesn't allow you to make it to 50 let own even 40.
A Type VI transsexual may be a heterosexual woman or a lesbian woman but Type VI transsexuals follow typical genetic female percentages when it comes to sexual orientation. In other words there is not a higher percentage of lesbians like is seen in late transitioners. There is a Dutch Study that proves this irrefutably which cannot be linked to because I do not have access although I have a copy which I also cannot legally post. There was an earlier post on this blog concerning it.
There is an ongoing attempt to claim intensity is not relevant in transsexualism which is primarily fronted by late transitioners and others that refute its truth. Dr Benjamin recognized it as did a Dr. Pauly and others. In order to refute intensity the term "homosexual transsexual" was coined which labeled those transsexuals attracted to boys as gay even though only those transsexuals that ended up as prostitutes ever had gay sex. There has been a concerted effort by many in the Transgender world to redefine what transsexual means and if you want to be inclusive you cannot have layers of intensity that Benjamin noted. We are all the same after all.
A high percentage of Type VI transsexuals seem to have a hormonal imbalance. In Benjamin's cases it ran quite high and was around 30-40 percent if memory serves me. I had very low testosterone levels as did many of my friends. Whether it was from something that happened in the womb or some other abnormality it was how it was. There were no 47XXY inter-sexed Type VI that I knew of but I could not exclude that from happening.
Someone asked me what it was like. It is very difficult to put into words. The first thing I would say is I would not wish it on even my worst enemy or anyone for that matter. It is a combination of pain, sorrow, anger, and confusion that gets worse as time goes by. It is like groundhog day only as each day goes by it does not stay the same, it gets worse. Every day is a repetition of the combination of pain, sorrow, anger, and confusion.
The combination of pain, sorrow, anger, and confusion combine to create a feeling of suffocation. You believe you are a girl and it is difficult to understand why people will not listen to you. Every single day is a struggle to get through and it gets worse if there is any bullying. You feel helpless and angry eventually. The anger comes from the realization nobody will listen or help but also because deep down inside there is always that one question. "Why am I like this?"
There were adults that tried to support me but were ill equipped and not knowledgeable about what was happening. My parents tried to help by sending me to the best Psychiatrists available in the Boston Massachusetts area. In retrospect it was a horrible decision because their rejection precipitated all the suicide attempts. All of my friends that went to Psychiatrists had similar results. How much better it is today is debatable.
The only lucky thing I had was the simple fact I did not look like a boy. If I had looked like a boy with my mannerisms it would have been worse than it was. Many of my friends were the same as I was. The unlucky ones were the Type VI that were not feminine and in one case I knew decidedly non feminine. She was as female as any woman I have ever known right to her soul but she killed herself. I think I know why but I offered to help financially any way she needed.
Transsexualism is not something you can control. Transsexualism controls you and consumes your very existence. Transsexuals do not "recognize" they have a gender issue at 55. Transsexuals do not decide to be transsexual, they just are transsexual. Look around the blog world and read what is said today.
I remember one quote which made me sick. It was, "I think I will decide to be transsexual". Since when is being born transsexual a decision we get to make? I certainly would have preferred normal. The Transgender Activists promote inclusion not to help transsexuals but to help transvestites and cross-dressers. Transvestites no longer have a social problem they have a gender identity problem. The problem with this claim is it is simply incorrect. Gender identity implies one is uncomfortable with the gender one was born as. Transvestites are not uncomfortable or at odds with being born men. They like being men they just like to wear women's cloths. This was a fetish until the political correctness of the transgender activists made it otherwise.
Intensity defines transsexualism and it categorizes the type of transsexual one is but does not define one form or another as a better "form" of transsexualism although some think it does. Intensity determines how early one decides enough is enough. It is why we have early, young, and older transitioners. It is both worse and better to have high intensity. At least you deal with it earlier.
If one is transsexual whether one is 4, 15, 24, 35, 45 or 55 you do not control it. It controls you. Anyone that claims they control transsexualism is a fraud. There are plenty of them blogging on T-Central.