Revisionist History and Other Thoughts

There is a common delusion among many in the Transgender world and unfortunately also many that were and are actually transsexual. It goes a little bit like this for them.

If we had the resources that are available today when we were school-aged, I would be wearing a dress today and I might even have different plumbing.

This is a classic comment actually made on a blog but similar to what is said by many in the TG world. The delusion is, if given the chance they would have done what some of us did when we pushed the envelope when we were young. The simple truth is no you would not have because it is not in your DNA because if it was you would have done something and even if prevented by home circumstances you would have done something when you were in your late teens to 20's unless you drowned your misery in drugs or booze.

They make the assumption they would have the courage we had and kids like Jazz have today but the truth is simple you do not because kids like Jazz and those of us that did something or forced something when we were young were high intensity transsexuals and none of you are remotely high intensity transsexuals because kids like that rarely get pushed into marriages or father children because psychologically they are girls and not a one of you were ever psychologically girls at that age.

I realize that due to political  of transsexuals that typing transsexuals is not talked about. This phenomena goes hand in hand with the transgender attempts to destroy the use of the word transsexual and essentially make it a pejorative. Sadly it is working all too well.

The most informative part about the comment above is the part where the individual says I would be wearing a dress today. That is typical transvestite speak because they equate female/woman with a dress and then mention they might possibly have new plumbing as in SRS. That is again total rubbish and typical of many late transitioners. The simpler truth is if you were going to do it you would done it then and not waited into your 40s, 50s. and 60s.

You make the false assumption that if it was easy for Jazz, it was not by the way, then if given the same chance when you were a child you would have done what Jazz has done and many children have done. You make the assumption that somehow you would make this change but the truth is if you were not driven to force the change when you were younger in your youth you would not do it today either because it takes courage and the conviction you are truly a girl to take that step.

Do you actually think it is easy? That is insulting to all of us that went through it. I am sure Jazz was just as scared and nervous as I was and many of my friends were when we forced the issue.  The only advantage the kids have today is they can transition earlier and there is far more information but the one quality all of us had was complete psychosexual inversion or the total belief we were girls.

You will also notice that most of the children today are extremely feminine even before they begin blockers and estrogen. In many ways we are lucky because it is kind of forced on you but I had some friends that were not so lucky, one of whom exited this world off the George Washington Bridge.

SRS was not an option for us nor is it an option for Jazz and the other kids today; they are not going to be saving their sperm; They are not going to be claiming that SRS is forced sterilization; they are not going to get married and father children; and they are hopefully realize they are just girls and women and not allow themselves to be stigmatized as transgender or trans anything because they and we are cured after SRS.

These kids and we were what Benjamin defined as Type VI transsexual. This does not mean many of you are not transsexual but in transsexuals intensity of your transsexualism rules and that is what drives transition and not some arbitrary belief that if given the chance you would have transitioned young.

It is not a case of one being better or worse than the other but we are different although bound by our transsexualism. The more intense the less likely one can be influenced by outside forces such as parents, family and friends. I do believe testosterone can dull the intensity in many but for those of us that were  or are young we were and are driven to be as we should have been born.

The truth is the earlier you transition the better socialized you become as a girl. I doubt any of you have the slightest idea how much courage it took or takes for a child to stick up for themselves with their parents.  In my case mine were trying to find a cure for me but they were certainly not supportive of many of the things I did and the same is true today. You have to make them understand you are correct and their misgivings are wrong. It took me 12 1/2 years with my mother until she realized I really was the daughter she thought was being born when I arrived.

In the world of today it is certainly easier to convince your parents but that implies the child is willing to push the issue and there is a large benefit for the child then and today. You are learning to stick up for yourself which is good. The other truth is there are no more kids today than there were back in my or even your time period. The truth is there is a media that may or may not be interested but if you look at all the clinics in the US that treat child transsexuals you will not find a lot of them or certainly as many as some of you think.

The sad part about today is the transgender crowd is attempting to associate themselves with these children in an attempt to infer they are the same as the children bu they are not. Sadly they are pushing their belief that SRS is only optional which by inference makes some parents believe this is true for their child. It is not and it is criminal!

I watched a YouTube video with Jazz and some later transitioners and one of these fools turned to Jazz and on air said, "I'll trade you my breasts for your hair", while not one person said a thing and poor Jazz looked about as uncomfortable as I have ever seen.

The other grade tragedy befalling the kids today is being linked to the GLB which infers again that somehow the children are like those that are gay and lesbian. The truth is they were born that way and we kids were born this way and some of us may end up gay or lesbian but that is later in life.  The other sad part is the LGB is pushing the transgender mantra which implies to those that truly understand what TG means to associate the kids with transvestites which is a travesty.

The other interesting aspect of the child transsexual is these children closely follow, almost identically, the percentages of straight and lesbian/gay adults in mainstream society.  That cannot be said for those that do not transition early. This is verified by a study done in the Netherlands.

Now one finds transvestites transitioning and starting hormones as they age and this is done under the guise of the transgender banner. We even have sudden onset transsexualism which happens suddenly and with several years some man is suddenly a woman. We even have people convincing other people they are transsexual. They are lying to themselves and their families but then men have always been good at lying to their wives. The irony is how shocked they are when the wife leaves and files for divorce. The real question should be simple. What the heck did you think she would do?

The other truth most of you miss is we and the kids today are sexual like all genetic girls are.  It is why we desperately want SRS and this is also verified by the Dutch study. We like boys and we want to date boys and eventually we want to be able to have a boyfriend and we need SRS so we can consummate the relationship down the road. We are girls and we think like girls and in general liking boys is what girls do as they enter puberty.

So this concept that we are all the same and naturally fit under the TG banner is just total bullshit but then this effort is being pushed by men that want the few privileges we women have whenever they happen to be dressed while maintaining their male dominance in society and the business world.

The other thing that irks me is reading some late transitioners scream they will kill themselves if they cannot live or dress as a woman.  A little clue from someone with way too much experience with suicide attempts. We don't tell people we are going to try because that sort of defeats the purpose which is to kill yourself. These fools read about we kids having high suicide rates and make it part of their learned narrative. The reason suicide was attempted was because we felt hopeless because there seemed and in reality was no help available. Once I found help I never thought of suicide again but I did have a dear friend I mentioned above kill herself because she knew she could never pass which was heartbreaking.

Thoughts, Zoe Brainless, Kids, and Fools

Just when I thought I was out they pulled me back in! Not really, but I sure did enjoy the vacation with friends, my step-daughter, and older brother and his family in Daytona Beach  Florida although ducking car parts in the stands was a little more then we bargained for. Great weather and a lot of fun.

Over the time I have blogged I have made several comments about Zoe Brain whose name I officially would petition should be changed to Brainless. For those not in the know Zoe is the one that claimed she had spontaneous feminization and turned into a girl and that her male parts magically went away or atrophied up into her body and is now biologically female. Zoe is quite famous for commenting on everything transgender and along with her spontaneous feminization claims she is also intersex none of which is true unless being born transsexual is intersex.

Zoe claimed to be a rocket scientist although I believe she may have taken that down. Just to be accurate she was never a rocket scientist. Zoe is not nor has she ever been intersex. I actually know the person who suggested that she may be one evening in a chat.  The very next day Zoe was intersex on her blog and sorry there are no instant intersex tests. Zoe has managed to weasel her way onto several television shows in Australia, they seem to have lower standards than the US even, that talked about intersex and the true difficulties those that are born that way deal with. It was enough to make one puke if you know the truth.

Zoe is a father so Zoe is not nor has Zoe ever been biologically female and Zoe had SRS in Thailand although she claimed she did not. It is kind of difficult to keep up with the evolving story line. My beef with Zoe is the simple truth she did not "spontaneously" feminize and if you do not believe me find some pictures of Zoe. My other beef is of course with her claims of being intersex which she is not.

Well I received a comment from Zoe Brainless on a very old post early this morning and it was to this post about lateral hostility and the transgender woman.

Well I was never transgender nor am I a transgender woman.  I am simply a woman albeit one approaching 70 faster than she likes. I have no idea whether Zoe was born transsexual but in my view since she actually did have SRS in Thailand she is a woman. Zoe's problem is being a woman seems to not be good enough and like most in the transgender mafia anyone that questions her is transphobic and thus this lateral hostility bullshit.

Do I have some hostility towards some in the transgender community? You are darn right I do! Being told that those of us born transsexual are the same as some cross dressing bald 62 year old dipshit from buttfuck Ohio is bad enough, but watching these men in dresses systematically attempt to demolish the concept of someone being born transsexual by equating it with some weekend crossdresser is kind of infuriating.

I was very lucky in many ways but the luckiest thing was I started estrogen just before I was 14 so I was never a "man" like Zoe was. I never fathered a child like Zoe did. Unless one was told I was always perceived as a girl which in my life in those days was at times a blessing and at times extremely dangerous.


That brings me to another point and that is transsexual children. One of the two children we are currently helping lost her therapist for a while when the therapist became very ill. Being a child transsexual when everyone knows what you are is psychologically demanding to say the least. We told her to find another therapist and we talked with her parents and told them not to worry about the cost since we cover it or in this case my close friend covers it. Just find her an understanding therapist who is close to the previous one.

My friend and I are old school and these children all of your see on television are transsexual and yes they are under the transgender umbrella but they are truly psychosexual inverted transsexuals with incredibly intense sex identification issues. They follow natal females exactly when it comes to percentages that are straight or lesbian because they are female and they are willing to fight the world to prove it.

Well our just turned 16 year old found a new therapist and the child had two immediate problems with him. The first was he adamantly refused to use the word transsexual because it was insulting to others under the transgender banner and he was appalled that the child had been on hormones and blockers for 2 years. We dropped that therapist like a bad habit because if there is one thing these kids need it is approval. Her original therapist has recovered enough from her illness to resume helping this beautiful 16 year old old young lady but it suddenly dawned on me that maybe the therapists are the issue in the transgender verses transsexual dispute.

Everyone seems to use transgender because it is politically correct because lord knows offending those men in dresses is such a bad thing to do. I am wondering if anyone that is currently in therapy has found this an issue elsewhere.  By this I mean has anyone had a therapist insist that even though you identify as transsexual insist on calling you transgender?



CNN had a show on the child Coy that is 6 ears old and was refused access to the girls room after having access for most of her first year. Very few of you out there have even the slightest clue the amount of courage, determination, and fortitude it takes for a young transsexual to demand acceptance for who he or she is by actually transitioning or pushing appearance boundaries that cause problems.

One of the problems with associating child transsexuals with the term transgender is the inherent danger that society will assume the attitude the child is still a boy. personally I can assure you we were not and are not but when you are associated with transvestites, cross-dressers, and the transgender umbrella people have started to wake up to what it really means which is a good old boy group trying to push their male fantasies on others.

Even when I was 5 I knew girls did not have what I had but I did not know what the difference was but I hated that thing and it continued until I had SRS. Media Matters has a video from a CNN show where this Pediatrician Dr. James Sear co-host of the CBS show "The Doctors" claims this 6 year old MTF transsexual child would walk around the girls room with his penis showing because all little boys do that. It has to be watched to be believed.

The child already wants to know when she can be fixed because a penis is disgusting and was disgusting to us as children. The simple truth is the earlier a child can socialize in their correct sex the better off they will be as adults because they will fit into their correct sex seamlessly. Sometimes doctors are the worst enemies of child transsexuals.



Massachusetts Public schools have a new transgender policy and in general after reading it completely I agree with a lot of it and its intention is noble. The thought that a child could discuss being transgender with an adult at school, a counselor, and not with their parents is naive but any help that a trans child, I mean ANY trans child regardless, gets is worth the effort because children should not have to suffer with this crap but not informing parents is a slippery slope in my humble opinion.

The other slippery slope is the mandate that the child be allowed to play sports as the gender they identify as. I doubt this will ever be an issue because most kids with these issues want to survive high school although i have to admit I would have liked to have been a cheerleader. The Olympics require the participant to be at least two years post op if I remember correctly and in High School that would or should be altered to require the child to be on at least blockers so testosterone will not kick in. If the child is not on blockers the MTF child will have a decided physical advantage over natal girls. Girls have participated in boys sports like golf for decades because girls are not as physically strong as boys so they are going up in competitive competition. I doubt this will become a big issue but if there is one thing I have learned it is there are enough douche-bags that someone might try and push it. Let us hope it is a none issue.


I tried to catch up with some of my favorite comedy blogs which are primarily the transvestites on T-central but I have noticed a decided somber mood on more than a few of them. It is rather sad to listen to some of these poor devils as they talk about dressing, dressing up, going out dressed up and how important their so-called feminine side is and sadly read as some of their lives dissolve around them as they lose their families when they announce to the world they are "transgender" and conveniently leave out the fact they are actually transvestites.

It is sad when these fools transition with no intention of SRS and then find it hard to change jobs or when they lose their jobs are lost and cannot understand why they cannot find a job. The really sad part is those of us that have worked as women after SRS early in life can explain the problem. Men will hire men before they will hire women in most skilled positions because they consider us inferior and I have seen that my entire life. They may hire you if you are pretty but sadly most of you are not but the simple truth is if you have no history working as a woman then how can they hire you for a job or position? You have never worked as a woman besides telling them you are "trans" is stupid to start with since it is none of their business.

The funny side of this is you are learning the trials and tribulations that we women have faced and fought through our entire lives. Now if you think they are reticent to hire women how reticent do you think they are to hire someone they perceive as a man in a dress? Is it fair or right?  Actually no it is not and I guess I understand why you all want to keep your current positions gained as men while now expressing yourself as a woman. Be forewarned sweetie if they downsize you get ready for a difficult time finding a position unless you can hide your past which I highly recommend.

I also found out that someone I actually like has decided they are going to transition and eventually have SRS and not once until they started therapy did this person EVER consider doing something like this. It seems the therapist convinced him he was transgender and should thus transition and get SRS. I have to wonder if this therapist has any clue because this man could start at Left Tackle for any NFL team and meet the height, weight, and arm length requirements with a little to spare. His family is already to dissolve around him and he cannot understand why. I fear this is a disaster waiting to happen and I am sad about that.